SOUNDTRACK TO A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN
tell me again to lose weight. i dare you. let’s go to sleep angry. i’ll lie there fuming for an hour before i get up to smoke and then curl up on the couch. tell me again that i’m just crazy, i’ll start to believe it. i could tell you to look for work, but i won’t. it’s okay, i’ll pick up the groceries, i’ll make dinner, i’ll deal with being yelled at for not turning on the fan on a hot drunken night, i’ll try to pretend that the things that hurt me never did while you sit in front of the tv and i bite my tongue so that we don’t have to scream any more than we already do. yeah, i’ll go for drinks because it’s friday and i’ll think we’re good until we pass the point of not fighting anymore and storm home silently and steaming. but you know, i’m just crazy. i make it all up, it’s in my head and you’re just AOK and we could be AOK if i weren’t a lunatic. it’s alright, the couch is yours by day and mine by night.